things are good. things are bad.

i eat a box of chocolates. my body is euphoric.
i take a multi vitamin. i toss my organs all around the room out my mouth. or, feel like doing so.

it's not necessarily the time that counts - it's the effort. it's the mind. it's that power.
you get out of it what you put into it. sometimes you run out of fuel. sometimes you know what you want and you just have to force yourself to get it, because it's worth the delayed gratification. i haven't even gone a week with that effort put in, and i'm already out of fuel.
you are what you repeatedly do. what do i want to repeatedly do??

health
intelligence
love
creativity
independence

abstinence
discipline
denial of self
suppress influences
responsibility

give and take. it must be worth it. it must be. just to get there would make me proud.