valentine.

a single rose. breakfast in bed. a kiss.
surprise, lovely :)

my body feels so strange. i feel incredibly empty. it's frustrating. i just started a new medication and i'm fearing that's the cause. it's a week in and i'm thinking it's either that or i'm ill or something. it's strange. i just don't want to do anything. and it's rare when it gets super exciting. and i don't like the sound of my own voice. you know when you're sick of hearing yourself talk?? it comes in spades every once in a while, doesn't it?? i don't know. i feel like sleeping all the time but when i lie down i'm just awake. it's heavy to breathe.

being rewarded for hard work is good. the determination is draining i guess. such is life. yes??

something sucked out my passion. where did it go??
lets find it again.

you're so many things.

it's cheesy and gross and ridiculous.
so i know you'll like it :D
cuz we both know how silly we are, all twitterpated and ridiculous.
but it's fun, and that's why we know it's okay!!
my lover.
my friend.


....all-nighter again!! my dad's baking chocolate chip cookies and my mom's bringin home the bacon, and it's cute how we're all coming up with creative ways to rise above our challenged lifestyles. we're doing things ourselves, as much as we can. we're doing things that really make us happy, minus money, minus all these other distractions that surround us, minus all the trivial, materialistic whatevers that we clog our days with.

god, i'm HAPPY.
really, really, really happy.

dear lord, thank you. no, seriously, jesus, thank you. thank you for giving us love, that little piece of.... well, the only piece of anything that really matters. ever.
people are IT.
:)

let me find me.
as i try to find you.
hold my hand.
find the path with me.
keep loving me.
keep making me ache and long for whatever it is that will stir up my desires to make something great of myself.
because i know for a fact that you've made me for something pretty freakin sweet.
and now i know that you know exactly what i need to make me really, truly happy.
and that's not anything of this earth.
thank you, dear jesus.

don't be scared.

it's you. and me. it's whatever we want it to be :) you make me happy. and i make you happy. and that's all we need.

we all need somebody to lean on.

i'll make sure not to lean on your right shoulder, though ;)

c.